the Kye Show

Tribute Remix

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 01:06:20 GMT

lol i meant every word i dont care what u say. no one did this to me dont blame it on her, i chose this, i havnt updated in a while but i figure this deserves mention if u ever see it. lost respect for me? u stole it from me, u threatned the life of my girlfriend....friends? look i have no intention of brimgimg this up again but all this deserves mention.i never lied to any one of you, u gave me up, chose jealousy over friendship, u let it get the best of you and u appologized, i accepted that and never thougth of it again. not everyone forgot mind u but i put it behind them....why is this annonymous? u must still have feelings for me dont you? whilst ur appology was accepted i couldnt betray a commitment to someone who didnt earn betrayal, hence, i couldnt turn my back on deanna since she couldnt let it go. u all knew me and ive changed quite a bit, but who u knew me as wasnt a lie, u knew the descision that i woulda made in that situation, u knew me... tribute, to friends that made a mistake and still do. i dont regret anything if thats what ur hoping for i made the hard and honorable descision. friend became foe
and i became aware of the real hipocracies in the world, the real betrayal, if u read this stephanie i just heard that Kim chose Ray over you, do not fret its not permenant of course but learn this. she never had best interest in mind then agian who did? but their own of course. but u got caught in the middle of a hateful wrong comment and a friendship, u know what u shouldve done, u did it. u appologized but Kim has always been like this, wanted u all to herself, she said those things that day u just posted them, we saw them under your name u were responsible and u knew it, u knew what u did. switch places with me now, who was responsible deanna or someone else? i know u always saw her as manipulative, but u never new her as a friend only as competition and dont deny it. i hold these truths to be self evident and now that the two of you are seperated u must see what really happened that day. you all made me choose, hoping i would chose you, but i didnt look at relationships or how i personally felt about any o you to get in the way, i only saw what happened. right and wrong, left and right, you two and deanna. obviously i havnt been manipulated, if u all were still my friedns u would know of course thats no fault of your own, but true anyways. we must all learn from what we lost that day....what i gave up....i gave up a lot but on the contrary to what u thought i gave it up for truth and happiness, not deanna. yet she was never guilty about that, she did lie about how she felt about me to an extent, i think that was obvious but we grew into an incredible relationship that i so humbly ended recentally. Steph, if i can still call u that as a friend, i never thought u were a monster for what u posted, just mistaken and u knew that too, but since u and kim were a pair and u WERE partially responsible in a rather big way i had to chose sides, im sry i did but i did. i told u we would always be friends, as long as i could help it, i had those two choices and im sry, u or her and obviously we all know what i chose and if u still dont understand the reasons, even though i think u finally do, then im sry. but ive put all that behind me, lets just chalk it up to a huge mistake and u two being a bitch and let it go, if u cant let it go thats fine, but i will. Now Kim, ur not a monster despite what it seems that i think, uve just made more mistakes ^^. two roads diverged in a yellow wood, i chose the path les trodden, u havnt found that fork yet, u havnt found that path. find it, im already walking mine and its about time u walked yours. klaire, umm, i think weve gotten over our differances, u have problems that ive talked to you about for ages, james bridged our gap as far as im concerned. u know what u do and what u shouldnt, but uve never failed as a friend or companion, uve never hurt me, i dont think anyways, u chose a path, it was the wrong one u torture yourself in the prison of your mind daily. backtrack and switch paths dear, theirs lions and tigers and bears on the path ur troddin' on now. So all of you, this is my long awaited official declaration and explanation. this is my tribute remix. i would love to find out who u all have become since ive been gone, just know that i wont be appologizng if u expect one, and u all have better learned from all this. thanks for everything, and who typed the recent annonymous entry about hypocracy anyways im curious, why do u have to hide? apparently uve all forgotten who i am. Byebye
Sincerly,
Kye

My plan

Mon, 31 May 2004 22:05:42 GMT

The countdown continues, so many things that time relevates to, so many things that people use time as a cushion for, time heals all wounds, a stitch in time saves nine, time brings down even the greatest nations. the concept of time as a measurement of something that never ends, why do we do it, why do we do tommorrow what we could do today, who knows, but time is a great power, one of those great weapons, only the greatest can overcome time, so think... everyone has some hidden timer, a clock that countsdown our life every day, its more over than yesterday, and even when uve accomplished all of your goals, you will die, and never get another chance, to do anything, so then whats the meaning of life, even with eternal life, u never get any chances in heaven to do what you can do on earth. in this life, the short.. what, 70-90 years, at best, then u spend eternity without getting chances anymore, no more descisions, no more struggles, nothing, pure happiness, or plain death, or hell, whatever u believe, you have 70 years out of the history of the universe, all billion years of it, to make something of yourself, to single-handedly make an impact on everything, or you can spend 70 years just trying to be alive, and thats all you ever get done, now people who would want to end it themselves, and throw away any chance of having fun at all have something wrong with them, 80 years, how short. so what can you do, what goal could you set, that would make your life, of all other lives, the one that was worth it, the one that was well spent, every step of the way. because though setting up to accomplish goals in the future is important, if you spend 10 years miserable, so the other....what, after high shcool, 50 years happy, youve wasted 1/7 of your life, what im trying to say, is that the present is just as important as the past. dont get caught up in this concept of preparing for the future, the future is only tommorrow's today.. now my journal is titled my plan and for those of you who would find any meaning out of these words, ill tell you it when the time is right, and you know who you are. but the time draws nearer, much.

dude, we soooo WON!!

Sat, 29 May 2004 02:45:09 GMT

Today was awesome, i did nothing in the morning, nothing interesting anyways, but then i went to deannas where we watched a movie and ate lunch and thats always a plus for a day, but if that wasnt enough the real fun began. i went to the skatepark and first i was witness to a car accident where a lady hit a tree cuz she was drunk and she said she swurved to miss a skateboarder, then i called the police, and she started yelling and cursing at me cuz she thought i knew the kid that she almost hit and was holding out on her, then she got in her friends car and drove off before the popo got there. but after that we went back to the park, and i hit the sickest trick ever, I HIT THE 900, it was so pimp, i was phsyced. then my friend from jacksonville called and i called him and deanna and neither called me back, so that sucks, but today was awesome. almost the best in a long time, but i could think of a couple better ones. good night everyone!!

Candy Pants, is that candy in your pants or are you cold?

Fri, 28 May 2004 02:10:07 GMT

HAHA, today was so much fun, first off, james and i went to rockledge high and the hospital to skate, it was awesome. then we came back and, guess what, PLAYED HALO.. then klaire came over and made me lunhc, this veggie thing is a breeze, and i love cheese, lol. i almost nailed the sweetest trick ever today, soo close. then i went to the movies with my lovely Deanna, we saw Shrek 2. it was a lot of fun, " hey deanna, pass the popcorn, oh nevermind, ill get it" haha, you know you loved it deanna. so off to bed, ill keep u posted as my wonderfull summer unfolds.

Wed, 26 May 2004 19:15:30 GMT

Hey everybody, name name is Doctor Nick. in other news, the nototrious Klaire came over and made me mac and cheese and meatless buffalo wings then we made brownies, it was delicious. also, i finally beat halo on legendary, i am the king. james is over to, and now im bored, not to mention the millions of things going through my head right now. cheers, au tres bien week-end de moi, maintenant, c'est un truc encore se resigner sur. au revoir

Tue, 25 May 2004 21:25:25 GMT

sry bout lunch klaire, i didnt get home and my battery on my cell died while i was on vacation. just thought id let u know i wasnt doing it on purpose, call me.

tribute

Thu, 20 May 2004 23:18:31 GMT

look, i dont know how often i will update this summer so im going to cover a lot of ground really quick. well first, i would like to thank Kim for caring, wanting to be my friend, and bringing this whole thing to my attention, and let me say that if i am the first, i trust you. second i would like to thank Klaire i want you to know that i care about you so much and hopefully we will always be there for each other, through the disagreements and all the other problems that come along, we just got close this year, but we are growing into incredible friends. and Stephanie, we have always been close, always been friends, been through thick, and coasted through thin and we always will be, i just know it, you mean a lot to me, and no matter what we disagree on, WE will always be and you know it, you may think im an idiot, or that ur mad at me, but we will always be there in the end. all of you, i wont see you very often this summer, but in all honesty, Steph, Kim, Klaire... i love you guys, and thank you again. have a great summer, see you soon.

Tue, 18 May 2004 19:59:36 GMT

whats goin on dogs, im in the community, thats pimp!

Tue, 18 May 2004 19:34:47 GMT

went to amandas last night until like 9:30 and we ate ice cream, played hobbitopoly, and sang and played piano. today i had exams and they went pretty good, hopefully tommorrow goes just as good. right now i have to find somewhere to stay tonight because no one is home and james cant have me over. i have no idea where else i can go but i hope that i find somewhere. couple other things going on, but nothing to talk about, and right now im skating, just thought id keep you all updated. have fun this summer guys.

Sun, 16 May 2004 23:20:24 GMT

i had so much fun this weekend, i hung out wit james and justin on friday and we got ready for the comp. the next morning we drove out to jacksonville, and we had the competition. everyone else was so incredibly good, it was amazing. one kid did and inverted(upside-down) 900. my jaw almost touched the floor. but i ended up like 7th out of 30 and we had a load of fun then we got to skate the park after and we met kids. it was the most fun weekend in so long, man it was awesome. so ive got work to do to win next time, lots of work. bye

Fri, 14 May 2004 00:52:37 GMT

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

Fri, 14 May 2004 00:41:45 GMT

hi there everybody, its been a while since i updated so let me keep you up-to-date. well i am studying hard for exams and i am going to have the best summer ever this year. in other news, this saturday i have a blade competition in jacksonville at kona, not that i need it or anything but wish me luck! and lastly i would like to wish all of you a very maerry summer also and i would like you all to come over at some point ok. well see you soon.
luv always,
yours truely
one of a kind
king of the world
Kye
p.s i researched how to become president, its easy, but i wont be able to do it until im like 40, u have that long to live, and vote for me.

Fri, 07 May 2004 21:46:06 GMT

Which one of your friends........
1. Has the best hair? me
2. Is the most boy-crazy? kim
3. Is the tallest? joel?
4. Is most likely to sky-dive? me
5. Has the closest taste in music to yours? steph
6. Has the most different taste in music from you? klaire
7. Has the most siblings? de
8. Has the most pets/dinner? de (chickens)
9. Is the most outgoing? me
10. Is the shyest? amanda
11. Has the most twisted sense of humor? de
12. Snores really loud? steph
13. Loves to dance? steph and kim
14. Loves scary movies? moi
15. Is kinda ditzy (but we know ya love em anyway!)? de
16. Talks on the phone the most? prolly de
17. Admits to liking cooking shows? me, i admit it...
18. Owns green pants? de?
19. Flirts a lot? haha me
20. Most likely to cry at movies? also me
21. Most likely to talk to strangers? me again
22. Most likely to get a tattoo? joel
23. Most likely to become a doctor? ::snaps on rubber gloves::
24. Lives farthest away? rachelle
25. Has the neatest room? uhh steph (if that means clean)
26. Is the most Talented? uhh ME
27. Is a "princess"? amanda
28. Is the most hyper? me
29. Looks the most like a celebrity? me, barbera streissand

I am: outgoing
I want: the world
I have: an incredible savior, Jesus Christ
I wish: my friends were happier
I hate: not being in control
I miss: Rachelle or my step-mom/siblings/dog
I hear: people who love me
I fear: nothing
I search: for answeres
I wonder: what my future is
I regret: nothing
I love: new challanges
I ache: when im lonely
I always: know what to do
I am not: alone
I dance: when i see you
I cry: when i have sinned
I am not always: smiling
I write: everyday
I win: everything
I loose: nothing that wasnt meant to be lost
I confuse: people who dont understand deeper meanings in life
I need: ....ive had nothing before
I should: listen to the truth

Fri, 07 May 2004 11:56:13 GMT

yes its friday finally, weekends rock, and schools almost out, i cant wait! but i have a history thing today and that sucks. steph came over last night nd we had mucho fun. no i didnt know we were going to the movies tonight but i do now and kool. hahaha, " so the schnozzes of the Jews will block out the sun so they cant see our troops coming in" haha, funfun, have a good day
p.s u cant still be mad at me de, can you, no, of course not <3.

Thu, 06 May 2004 20:40:33 GMT

i wonder how many people will actually want me dead, thats creepy. i dont feel good today, im tired physically and mentally from the fear of death, deanna has been telling me all day how much she wants to kill me and how mad at me she is, which really sucks. i just want to go to sleep now. ive been thinking about stuff for too long today and my head hurts, steph is coming over later and datll be koo. but before then i am definently going to need some kind of mental rest. man im tired....

Wed, 05 May 2004 14:22:27 GMT

haha ur at school and im not :p

Sun, 02 May 2004 03:10:42 GMT

we were definently "doin it" this weekend, it was really fun, on friday james and dallas came over and we watched movies and dallas and i talked in my room while james was out skating and she and i are so much alike. she was going to spend the night but she had to go to prom the next day. then on saturday i got up and went skating, then i went to islands of adventure with james, and played him in virtual fighting and i kicked his ass. then i got home and me and james had a load of fun and i talked to deanna until late. ive been doin a lot of "soul searching" lately and ive learned a lot about myself and others. but any ways back to my story. and tommorrow i am going to the skate park, maybe brittany's for swimming, and hope fully i will get to see deanna, but shes been busy this weekend so far so i dont know. and then i am going to stay up all night and do some things that i need to do and havnt done in a while. and this summer is going to be incredible, theres so much that i need to do and learn and experiance. well then until next time kids, dont forget to bring a towel

Sat, 01 May 2004 14:37:34 GMT

ding dong the witch is dead,the wicked witch is dead. hey everybody, i would like to start out by thanking my record label and sincerely apologizing to klaire for not being able to go to her work but dallas came over for our biography. and i would like to thank deanna for the lovely love message from 2:30 in the morning, james appreciated that. it was beutifull. and i would like to close by saying im on my way to islands of adventure for the day and..............Day took r jobs!!!!!!!!! have a wonderful weekend everybody and remember, call me often so i look cool in public places and dont do drugs. until next time kids :: sings the closing song to mr. rogers neighborhood::

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 19:59:23 GMT

i make myself laugh sometimes, i am a very optimistic person and yet a very pickey person. i am never happy until things are perfect, then i get bored and need something else to do, i think steph is right i do have A.D.D. but thats okay because i usually manage to accomplish whatever i set out to do so its not so much of a problem. last night was fun i hadnt seen james in a while, he doesnt know it yet but hes coming over tonight along with dallas. which should be calling me about now if i get off-line. i dont know whats going on this weekend, i have a lot to do. good luck deanna on your walk-a-thon for the cancerous patients and i hope i can get to see you sometime this weekend or else i will drown in my sorrowous tears of missing you, and we dont want that to happen. mucho props to steph on 37 canoe.
were doin it,
kye

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 01:25:24 GMT

anyone, memory of me?? strongest memory go for it
::gulp:: i can only imagine what u all will come up with

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 01:20:07 GMT

theres so many things that i wish i understood, yet as a wise person has related to me, it happens to people like us. i dont know if u ever read my journal or not but its been a while and no time at all, ur so kool, we always understand each other, and u know what else we know too. i had forgotten u were like this, how did i forget that there was another. only u know of what i speak and ur prolly not reading this yet ull know what i said. is there no time when i learn and limit. And as for U, ur so hard to read, u never talk about urself because u say u dont know the answeres, i hope ur right. maybe i think to deeply into all of this. but i just dont get it, why u, either ur one or nothing but then why cant u be seen, of all people why u. i have learned much that i knew, and not this, this is something other than knowledge, but what is it. the assortment of sighns is indeed confusing at best, but the trust is greater i must think. what are u trying to prove, what am i trying to find, i think U have it, but only u oh sage know of what i speak, and yet know that i know not. the quest is for answeres, to the test without questions, and yet the path is set inside that leads me even though i decide. of all the answeres in the world one is always clear, the path changes but the destination never does, if only it were this simple. i know that most people reading this dont know what its about, sry, but dont worry its not u

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 22:51:53 GMT

yes! like a light it all makes sense again, im so happy. i love u steph, i love u deanna, i love u klaire, im so sorry i didnt see it all before, but i do now. itll all be great. thanks steph

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 22:04:39 GMT

ive been through a lot in my life and ive learned a lot, ive learned that you can always trust yourself, even when no one else, ive learned that people wont always be there for u, but there are some people who will. and all relationships take work, but work that comes natural, things seem to work themselves out in a good relationship. ive been through many roads and paths and the one im on now is just another experiance. i too hope this will work out but stop saying that i dont see whats happening, i see it, i just dont hold the responsiblity to myself. true friends exept things about the other because they care, and they dont let it make them sad. true friends want the best for the other. i can honestly say that i want u to be happy at watever expense, but i cant give that happiness to you. i KNOW what a true friend is.

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 21:33:56 GMT

yes you are right i am changing, i see things differantly than i used to, honestly i hate being dragged down in other peoples problems, i love helping people but it consumed me, i could never find things that made everyone happy. truthfully, i knew that with MY happiness some people would get hurt but it was about time i started setting up for MY future, and if my happiness is hurting my "friends" than thats whats wrong. of course it rips me apart to know that people that i love are hurting at the expense of my happiness, but its only because to many people think they have nothing left, i managed to do the impossible and accomplish making myself happy, if i can do it so can you. i know from a few people that being true friends doesnt require an effort, it just is, and thats what i have. the day i changed was the day i threw caution away and told her how i felt, thinking that it couldnt happen and knowing that people may get hurt, but i knew that that was the last part of my life that i needed to fix, and she did that. i have no idea how she feels about all this because only she does, but i know that this is what i wanted and that was it. if deanna decides things should change between us then so be it, but i knew that i was changing myself and i dont regrette it, i hope u can learn to live with what we have together for as long as we do and still be our friends but if not then I am sry, i truely am sry. but i needed all of this, my life is shaped by moments like these. im done deciding between people, everything u do from now on is your decision.
yours truely
-kye

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 21:16:24 GMT

man it has been an awesome!! weekend. i am exhausted and im glad, ill sleep well tonight. life is simply amazing, dont u think?